interlude

I'M BACK!!!
^-^v

actually, it's been two weeks since I'm officially BACK...
hahaha...

well, some days ago I participated in a special 'activity'...
learnt a lot of new things there...

anyway...
it's been quite a hectic year..
i think...
preparing for the A level is not an easy task, but i do admit that i slacked (A LOT)...^-^

truth is...
failing the uni entrance exam affects me a lot...
i think i changed the way i think after i received the rejection letter from the uni...
i was,um..,weak..
not that i'm strong now...
but it's just that i learnt how to push myself forward..
to motivate myself using the failures and others' despising thoughts...
i became very strict with myself...
started to demand more from myself...

getting the mark i got for ielts is, actually, not enough for me..
i know some will definitely kill me if they know my mark...
but that's the way i've changed into...

the marks i got for UN, back then, i thought it's good enough..
now, i think i didn't give my best...

sometimes i think that i'm giving myself too much stress...
my parents kept on telling me that a pass is enough for the As...
but...
that's not how i want me to achieve..
if i know i can do better, then why stop at the passing mark?

well..........
now the exams are over...
i don't know how the result will be...
i just hope for the best...
hahahahaha....

now...
after this year of competing with myself....
i'm going to relax (if i can)...
hope that i can get into a uni next year and face another challenge again...

nope, not that i like to compete, i just like to win...^-^v
yup, i've changed...that's true...
i like the feeling when you manage to prove that you can while all others think that you probably'll fail...
i like the feeling when people say 'i thought she couldn't'...
hahahahhahaha......

around 7 months of rest...
7 months' time to prepare for the next battle...
7 months' time to enjoy what i like to do, though it's not really true...

well.....
during these months...
i think i'd better set some targets...
hmm...
first of all....
new story coming soon! (let's hope so)

then i'd better get some datas.......

until next time...
mata ne...